i suppose everyone has days like this sometimes. so, today at school, i had this strange feeling, i was with my new class which is nice and all, but there was this sort of emptiness. like a nagging loneliness? idk, i was talking to people & all, but something was missing. i guess its because its only february and everything seems to be drifting apart already. i keep telling myself i'm just over thinking things, but idk. sometimes i think that i expect way too much from life. i should remember that friends/circumstances, aren't something that i deserve, instead i should be blessed for what i have been given and make do with it, turn it to suit my needs and all. but argh, i feel so helpless? idk. its so strange, i hope i snap out of this soon. if i don't learn to be happy with myself, how can i expect anyone to be happy with me. i just hate myself at times like this. sometimes i wish i were as optimistic as you, B. i wish you were here. i think what i need is someone to hold my hand, tell me i'll be okay, you could always do that. waxmaxsex i wish you guys were here too. i don't like what i'm doing to myself. i hope things get better.