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Friday, February 05, 2010

by my side.

what you want is not what you get.
i suppose everyone has days like this sometimes. so, today at school, i had this strange feeling, i was with my new class which is nice and all, but there was this sort of emptiness. like a nagging loneliness? idk, i was talking to people & all, but something was missing. i guess its because its only february and everything seems to be drifting apart already. i keep telling myself i'm just over thinking things, but idk. sometimes i think that i expect way too much from life. i should remember that friends/circumstances, aren't something that i deserve, instead i should be blessed for what i have been given and make do with it, turn it to suit my needs and all. but argh, i feel so helpless? idk. its so strange, i hope i snap out of this soon. if i don't learn to be happy with myself, how can i expect anyone to be happy with me. i just hate myself at times like this. sometimes i wish i were as optimistic as you, B. i wish you were here. i think what i need is someone to hold my hand, tell me i'll be okay, you could always do that. waxmaxsex i wish you guys were here too. i don't like what i'm doing to myself. i hope things get better.
always keep the faith.


Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I am not stupid, please believe me.

hello (:

1) orientation ended yesterday. i had (alot of) fun. i don't have the pics yet cuz kristy is hogging her own camera and not uploading them but (: honestly, at first i was certain i was going to have a crappy time at orientation, but HH12, was great. i liked the people, i liked the things we did (although sometimes we're so stoned, whaiwhai), i had an awesome time, i hope we stay friends and i'm looking forward to Take 5, yay! pandas! thankyou for a pretty darn amazing orientation :D
to gongfu pandas + ogls : -KISSES I LOBE YOU YAY.

2) I had Players audition today. i was so so so nervous + i'm auditioned after ashima who is a pretty amazing actress, hence i think the seniors think  i'm ridiculous D: i really hope i didn't screw up too bad D: i think they laughed at me because i looked so stupid D: NUUUUUUUU I DON'T WANT TO BE STUPID WHY DO I ALWAYS LOOK STUPID, IS IT LIKE MY DEFAULT? -is stupid. then there's was a part where i said "i can do sets too" but the teacher in charge heard "i can do sex" OH PLS KILL ME NAO. A TEACHER THINKS I DO SEX. -dies. i was embarrassed out of my wits i swear. DEAR GOD PLEASE MAKE EVERYONE FORGET WHAT HAPPENED @ AUDITIONS & i don't do sex okay, just for your reference D:

& uh. i'm not stupid. maaaaaaaan first day of official jc life, and everyone thinks i'm stupid D: oh deary.


Monday, January 25, 2010

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what's a beauty you can't touch



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APPY BIRTHDAY  JAEJOONG,
(virtual) LOVE OF MY LIFE


(why r you so yummy, unf unf)



jealousy is ugly,& so are you.

I hope you’re happy and you choke on it. A pleasing phrase for the secretly jealous. It also reminds me of you. It makes me think about how much I loath you and everything you've obtained by shrugging that dead weight off your shoulders. It makes me hate you for making me hate myself.

Because, if I can’t blame you, then I’m the only one left.

So, please. Make this easy for both of us and don’t talk to me again. Stop shoving your new and improved life in my face. It makes me sick.


Sunday, January 24, 2010

SO THE KILLERS, UH LIKE, CANCELLED? so like, i've nothing to do tonight, after one whole month of anticipation, like, nothing. okay. so. yes. i'm pissed & i hate life.



dbsk, i guess its only you and me then.

 
yes, and you too, jaejoong.



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